Half Ton Woman...check your local listings

I am so officially on a major diet. I am wearing jeans that were too big over the summer. I could pull them off without even unbuttoning them. Now they are almost too tight to wear. This is rediculus. When I was a freshman I was huge. I was almost 200 lbs. By the summer of my junior year I had droped almost 40 lbs. I was really proud of myself. But now I am starting to put the weight back on. I can really see it when I look at my senior pictures. I have probably gained like 10 -15 lbs. 

During my junior year I was told I was hypoglycemic and in order to keep my blood sugar at a constant normal level I needed to eat 5 small meals a day. So I was refered to a dietician ( that is spelled wrong). But she really didn't tell me anything that I didn't already know..."Eat more fruit and veggies and lower fats and sugars". But I was already doing that. She didn't write me a meal plan or anything. Just basically just what foods were the best at raising my blood sugar and keeping it level. But I was still unaware as to what foods would be best at what times and what foods I should stay away from. No help at all. So I just did what I could have done...cut fats and eat more veggies and fruit. And I lost a few more lbs but barley enough to even notice. Now that junior year is over and senior year is half way over ( as of friday) I am still eating my 5 small meals a day (and haveing little splurges of bad stuff here and there) but I'm not getting any exercise.

It's not that I don't want to...like I would rather sit on my ass then go for a walk but with work and everything is just going down the drain. I don't have time to do anything after I get home. I come home from work...eat my supper, it is now 9:00...I go upstairs to do my homework which can last anywhere from 1 hour to almost 3. So by the time I get done I am exausted ( yup that's spelled wrong too) and I go to bed. But my mind is so restless I toss and turn for hours. Then i am back up at like 6...well i am supposed to be up by 6. I don't normally get up until close to 7. If I had the ambition and will to get up at 6 I would be able to exercise. I could throw in my Pilates video and go at it. I love doing pilates. I think they are so fun. I like Yoga too and I love to run but I just have no ambition and I am so tired all the damn time I just don't feel like doing it. But I need to do it.

I just don't want to end up being on some documentary for TLC or Discovery Health being the half ton woman or something. I guess all I need I a little will-power and a lot of hope. ~*Nicole*~